Day 4.

Yesterday was miserable.  Well, it wasn't totally miserable, but I struggled. 

I started the morning with my Detox, waited 30 minutes and then had a PB & J on whole wheat toast for breakfast along with my energy/metabolism boosting pill.  While I was at work, I ate a NutriGrain bar, realized my energy was starting to dip, and took another dose of the pills. 

The only positive I noticed was that I the Nutrigrain bar seemed to hold off hunger just fine while I was at work since I didn't want to take a lunch break.  When I got home at 3 though, my stomach was being very needy.  I realize it was 3pm but I knew I would be up late with friends and I had nothing else available to be. So I ate another PB &J.  Don't worry, it is organic, good for me Jelly and Low Fat PB. It did the trick for a few hours...

On a side note, I realize how diet pills work now.  They price them so fucking expensively that you can't afford food, which makes you not eat.  UGH.  Hopefully things will get easier when I actually have health food to eat around home.  My Aunt and Uncle are going to Costco today so I made them a list of things to pick up for me...

So we had plans with friends at 730 last night, on the way there my stomach started rumbling and Justin hadn't eaten either so he stops at McDonalds.  Thanks husband. So supportive. 

You will be happy to know that I had a grilled chicken sandwich with no mayo on a whole wheat bun and a side of apple slices that were 35 calories (said so right on the package).  Yes, I ate Carbs again, but its not like I ate a ton and ugghhh.. I'm feeling guilty now.  :-(  Thanks conscience.

I've decided I'm going to spend the morning working out, cleaning, and getting prepped for my interview at 3:30.  Yes, I have an interview for a new job at a bank, full time position, but the most amazing thing is the bank is throwing distance, practically, from my house.  We'll see.  I have no idea how many they are interviewing but I am pretty damn qualified and smart for this small town.

Oh I forgot to tell you the horrible part.  Last night around 10pm I wanted to eat everything in sight.  I didn't. But I wanted to. A friend was even going up to the store to pick up snacks, which made it even harder... But I opted for a few of these little sticks from Costco that are actually made out of veggies.  Surprisingly good and they curbed my appetite.  Thank you, Mimi, for having such delicious, yet healthy snacks at my disposal.

God damn, this is making me hungry.  Oh well, time for breakfast and a workout.  I wish I had eggs... Maybe the roommates upstairs do.. Doubtful, but we will see.  Neighbors have a chicken coop-maybe I'll steal some haha

No, I won't. 

I should probably update my weight, but I've decided its more dramatic when I do that weekly.  

Okay, talk more later.  Goodbye world.